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Monday, April 18, 2011

Portraying African Americans as monkeys surely isn't rascist

http://www.nydailynews.com/news/politics/2011/04/17/2011-04-17_republican_official_in_california_didnt_think_obama_as_chimp_email_was_racist.html

A California Republican party official who sent out an e-mail of President Obama's face super-imposed onto a chimp says she's sorry, but insists she wasn't trying to be racist.
Marilyn Davenport, an elected member of the Orange County Republican central committee, sent the e-mail on Friday. The "family photo" features the commander-in-chief as a baby chimpanzee with two chimp parents.
Along with the offensive image was the tagline "Now you know why -- No birth certificate."
The supposed gag refers to the belief by so-called "birthers," who insist - even after the White House released a digitally scanned image of his Hawaii birth certificate in 2008 - that Obama wasn't born in the U.S. and is ineligible to be president.
Davenport admitted to passing it around to her "friends and acquaintances," reported the Orange County Weekly.
The Tea Party activist then offered up a half-hearted apology.
"I'm sorry if my email offended anyone," she wrote, according to the OC Weekly. "I simply found it amusing regarding the character of Obama and all the questions surrounding his origin of birth."
Davenport wrote she hadn't considered that Obama is "half black."
"In fact, the thought never entered my mind until one or two other people tried to make this about race," she wrote.
The GOP committeewoman then blamed the "media" for trying to make a big deal out of the racist e-mail, insisting that the "average person knows and agrees is much ado about nothing."
Davenport has since sought to hunt down the "cowardly" person who leaked the e-mail, said Republican Party of Orange County chairman Scott Baugh, who was one of the original people who received the "highly inappropriate" Obama e-mail.
"It's a despicable message, it drips with racism and I think she should step down from the committee," he said.
Davenport, however, has already refused to quit.
"I will NOT resign my central committee position over this matter," she wrote to the OC Weekly."I have never seen anything like this before from an elected official," Michael Schroeder, former chairman of the California GOP Party, told CBS 2 News in Los Angeles. "It's stunning."He noted that in 2009 the former Republican mayor of Los Alamitos, Dean Grose, e-mailed a photo showing a watermelon patch in front of the White House last year, Davenport defended him. She also backed former Newport Beach City Councilman Dick Nichols for making an offensive remark about Mexicans."She has managed to top both of those incidents by comparing African Americans to monkeys," Schroeder told the OC Weekly on Saturday. "She has disgraced herself and needs to resign."
In March 2010, Tennessee Hospitality Association CEO Walt Baker was fired after forwarding a joke via e-mail equating First Lady Michelle Obama to Cheeta, Tarzan's chimpanzee sidekick.

MY TAKE
Note to all those who disagree portraying black people as monkeys and might just be considered racist as well as saying the  word nigga.  Yeah I am sure people think its ok ..well "you people " do it all the time...no you can't.  Well u can if you like but just be real on why you feel the need and why it sound so good on your tongue. This line "Davenport wrote she hadn't considered that Obama is "half black." Really? now shes blind and has amnesia.  You know what, I am not surprised but I am tired of the cowardly apologies when you know what you did.  Its sad that people apologize only when it might effect their pockets *cough cough Ashley Judd.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

TIRED | Beyonce, Chrisette Michele, Ciara, Keyshia Cole, Monica, Mya & A...

May be its the rain I don't know

Mood wise not a good day.  I went to the gym (YAY).  Sometimes I think I am just impatient. i see things lining up the way they should and I am the one wondering "Are we there yet?" I miss my Dad today no rhyme or reason just miss his presence I have never been away from him this long and it is setting in that I have to get use to this.  I worry about my daughter because she is an art head and being tortured by the self proclaimed Princess crew in school.  She isn't happy therefore I am concerned.  She can in fact handle her own and I know I can't bubble wrap the girl...I so would but I just want her to be ok.  I do not send her to school to be miserable but with a month and a half of school left to go we will just have to ride it out.  She will be ok i am sure it is just on top of my other worries. I think I am going to go home and do some meditation and prayer and hopefully my spirit feels better because right now my balance is off. 

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Take off to live

Life comes at us fast children, jobs, other activities and we get lost on taking time to actually live and be free. Time to do something that feeds our spirit and so we walk around feeling hungry.  You have to be the one to schedule in a time to live.  Not saying all the rest is not important it so is but because of those wonderful things you owe yourself time to become a better you, to reach those goals, to tackle your dreams.  You owe yourself to be wonderfully you. To be the design you were created to be. You owe yourself time to spread those wings and soar.  In all of lfe do not forget who you are.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Just me. Raw me.




Just me. Raw me. Thats how I feel should be an everyday thing but its not.  I play many roles in this life and wear different hats and sometimes it can be overwhelming but I put it into perspective.  My job as a MOM is my most important role. To make sure my son and daughter are raised to contribute to society in the way they choose.  I am a lioness when it comes to my babies I don't play and love them dearly.  Sometimes we as women lose ourselves in that and I refuse.  They are a part of my journey but there are many roads as a woman I am still exploring.  I am still growing, my mind expanding and I am hungry for more.  I am on a quest to stay happy. Happy mommy creates a happy home.  So i am setting up myself and on my quest to be a better me.  I am starting within.  I hit the dreaded gym, I am eating healthier, drinking more water.  next my spirituality needs an inventory my faith has been shook with the losses I have suffered and the things I have seen. The disappointments which none of them I can blame on God..it was man or natural reasons. I need to deal with that. You spirituality is just that yours.  I am progressing though that to me makes me smile

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

My new health kick


Started this for my diabetes I also am hitting the gym today WOOHOOO. 
On my way to healthy living


Monday, April 4, 2011

Happy 83rd birthday Dr.Maya Angleou

This  is one of my biggest sheros so i had to say Happy Birthday Dr. Maya Angelou.  She has comforted me, motivated me made me laugh with her words. her understanding of life is like she has been here before a million times and she is a Master Teacher.  So today I thought I would share my favorite quotes poems etc from her.

At the end of the day people won’t remember what you said or did, they will remember how you made them feel 

We may encounter many defeats but we must not be defeated 

A bird doesn’t sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song 



"I am grateful to have been loved and to be loved now and to be able to love, because that liberates. Love liberates. It doesn't just hold—that's ego. Love liberates. It doesn't bind. Love says, 'I love you. I love you if you're in China. I love you if you're across town. I love you if you're in Harlem. I love you. I would like to be near you. I'd like to have your arms around me. I'd like to hear your voice in my ear. But that's not possible now, so I love you. Go.'" — Dr. Maya Angelou

/ Prepare yourself so that you can be a rainbow in someone else's cloud./
—Maya Angelou
 
Words are things, I'm convinced. They get in your wallpaper. They get in your rugs, in your upholstery, in your clothes, and finally, into you./
 

Thursday, March 31, 2011

My issue with Social Networks...the punks get courage

Hello Ms. Jenkins! Mmm, mm, mm. That's one fine woman there. Yes sir. Better NO one say nothin' bad about Ms. Jenkins. Uh-uh. Coarse her breath smells so bad it could singe your nose hairs. But I ain't one to gossip, so you didn't hear that from me.
People hide behind the internet, they turn brand new and show their ugly habits. Some just don't right mean to others with no cause except maybe it makes them feel better. Why do I want to have a rocking chair conversation about any celebs outfits, drug problems, dog, ex wives, when they shit?  They are still human talented or lucky in the arts.  I am too busy trying to get mines. Then there is the ones who don't like nobody and feed negativity constantly every status. i mean have a bad day, have a moment but why can't we be KIND.  We are humanKIND and these days it is hard enough for all of us to have to listen to and celebrate other people downfalls. It is misplaced energy.

I do LOVE the inspirational and the soldiers of social networks that enlighten my mind to new things.  I shouldn't feel worse after reading my wall but sometimes i most certainly do.

Life is tooo short so lets just be better people.  it can only elevate us and elevating ourselves is doing our part in the whole connection of things. We are only pieces to the puzzle.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

What I miss the most

My husband is away on business. I am happy he is doing his thing really just nature has me missing him. I miss his laugh holding him at night, the way he looks at me and that pouty face he gets when he wants something lol.  I miss his strength, the way he is with the kids.
 I miss his smell touching him its all weird to me. We been married 5 months and haven't spent a night apart. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder but I was already extremly fond lol. 

This doesn't mean I expect him to stay home there will plenty of times like this but right now I just miss him.  he is so beautiful how could I not. I have the best husband in the World

Thursday, March 24, 2011

J Dilla - Let The Dollar Circulate



J Dilla....this is my favorite Friday joint. He destroyed it so I am playing it over and over lol. C'mon Friday

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

When your path goes BOOM

    
    I had a path planned whether I laid it out or someone else it did it was a road I knew I had to walk.  It began to crumble piece by piece with each experience of life until one day BOOM. I found that road to be impossible and I found it led to someone elses journey and not my own. Now I seek my path and it feels comfy.  Have I taken all the right roads? No.  I am still mapping things out.  This is my journey, this is my path.  I no longer believe in living within others limits and probably do things one might shake there head out. Not meaning its wrong its just not their path.
          One day maybe I will be bold enough to go beyond what people think they know to make them understand but the truth is people who love you look beyond that. Maybe one day but do i want to see pity in others eyes , no so I push forward. I learned that from my Mommy who has many wounds as a soldier and she is never afraid to take the front lines.  She is in fact my hero.  My heart.  Misunderstood by many when you get to hear the real you begin to understand the complexity people carry and how it creates who they are today.  Thats what I am doing is digging.  Digging fast to be that one and mapping it all out.

Friday, March 11, 2011

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

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ı нαѵє sσмє ƒσσ∂ ıη мy вαg ƒσя yσυ.
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ησ. ı нαѵє sσмє ƒσσ∂ ƒσя тнσυgнт.
sıηcє kησωłє∂gє ıs ıηƒıηıтє ıт нαs ıηƒıηıтєły ƒєłł ση мє.
คหd ¡ƒ ყσu dσห'т ωคหт тσ Ъε dσωห ω¡тн мε
тнεห ყσu dσห'т ωคหт тσ p¡cк ƒяσм мყ คppłεтяεε
คหd ¡ƒ ყσu dσห'т ωคหт тσ Ъε dσωห ω¡тн мε
ყσu juรт dσห'т ωคหт тσ Ъε dσωห

...єяyкAђ þA₫џ

The END of the World Hide your kids, Hide your wives

Every time the Earth changes its the END times. Do we treat the Earth well? Its like beating you spouse for 20 years they leave and u are surprised. We poison the air and the water. We mess up the balance so when the Earth shakes why you blaming it on prophesy. You see the "signs", well do something better for the Earth. We even on other planets messing up. Use logic. People are killing more why? Is it due to Revelation or the fact of the breakdown of our social structure, Humankinds parenting skills need a lot of work. Kids being raised by TV..put 2 and 2 together.

We fail to take responsibility in our part and just leave things like it was going to happen anyway.  If we did pay attention to the Earth from the beginning instead of cutting down the rainforest we may have already found the cure to may ailments.  Instead we are shocked to see new sickness everywhere.  

Just a little something to think about

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Cornel West - On His Uniform

The Light


 
I didn’t think I would begin to see the light. I felt guilty for smiling when my Daddy and child couldn’t anymore until I realized there spirits are free and in the lessons of why I loved them both was because of their life.  You have to embrace the time you have, you have to make your mark in this body, you have to chase your dreams.  If my Dad wasn’t a person who lived and wasn’t a good person I wouldn’t miss him the way I do. 
In honor of his life I have to do this.  I have to create. I have to push through the pain and it is not easy at all but it is the least I can do in honoring who he was to me. 
I have begun a new life all things are brighter the sun is shining and God does love me.  Life, living not simply existing
 
Lanora

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Top 20 Yoga Poses

Friday, March 4, 2011

Quite simple the complexity of self


To make it quite simple the complexity of self has taken over my thoughts. When I loss my angels something inside me began to question my place. My mind began to question when I would stop helping everyone elses dreams and focus on my own for awhile. My Dads death was sudden and we always say tomorrow is not promised but if we believed that would we waste time. Would we embrace negativity and feed into it. Would we live in group think and take cues from what the media says is so when in our hearts we have built in maps, we just have to listen to our spirit? Would we waste time with people we know are not right even when they claim to be sitting in churches with leaders that bare no fruit? Would social medias be important if we actually took time out to actually be with the ones we loved? Would we wait for someone else to do what we could do ourselves? Would disrespect be the poison of society? Just something to think about




For me I have begun a journey to live as if it is my last breath. I want to leave my daughter with more than memories I want to leave her with an example. I want to soar. I want to take the shackles of the I can't and burn them. I want o move forward without preconceived ideas being ghosts in my head. I have educated myself for this reason. More than anything I have a purpose, we all do and it has no choice but to flourish because you are nurturing it. It is your fingerprint. I am moving forward.


I am not the same. My eyes have seen my Daddy who was my friend and gave me life laying in eternal sleep. Your view on the World is forever changed. Good or bad is not the issue the issue is what now? The great thing is that answer has been in me all along it took me being broke down and my heart cleansed with my tears to see it. There is no stopping us now.

7 Billion: Are You Typical? -- National Geographic Magazine

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

10-Yr Old Girl Letter To Lil Wayne

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Kahlil Gibran

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.  
~Kahlil Gibran


I have used this one when grieving for my Dad who I lost in September.  I am finding those things that make me smile is what I will miss most.  He is at peace it is me who will miss the goodness and sweetness in his character. His smile, his laughter were staples in my life.  I always loved his smile.  It has been a pleasure and gift to have a real Daddy.

Why don't women see?

We are beautiful.  We come in many shapes, colors variations that is our beauty our strength.  To sit back in this World and take the back seat to a man simply because he has a penis is not respecting the strength inside.  No I am not saying all men take a back seat we all have opportunity to flourish but do not creates limits for yourself and say you can't and your reasoning be due to a label of what you are or are not. Live beyond the labels.  Be happy, free and soar, You have wings use those bad boys and lets do this.

The most common way people give up their power
is by thinking they don't have any.

~ Alice Walker ~

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

A Womans Worth

Sometimes we ignore the big picture to busy playing Queen Bee to realize we are all Queens.  Life pits us against each other in hopes of taking away our power.  As a individual we are strong, as a collective we are a force.  We have multi tasking built into our system. We are the first teachers.  We love hard, we cry hard.  We live passionately. 

We have to stop the attacks on our sisters and instead look toward elevating and building and ooo what a sight I can see if we would just STOP.  Rolling eyes, smacking lips at one another as if to tell the other you are on defense and why.  Defense because something within say you are not enough, when you are.  You are golden a treasure a star.  You are created beautifully and perfectly. Love you, love your body and soon you will not feel that negative energy that makes you roll your eyes because your eyes are open wide.

In closing understand this is not a sermon I am speaking to me.  it touched my spirit and I wanted to pass it on. Love life.  Live as if it is the last day and ladies dance like no one is watching because you are fabulous.


Lanora

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Bawling Baby

        My inner child screaming wanting to be free from all this nonsense.  I feel reborn in a world that sometimes is to much. Like a baby in the delivery welcomed by loud lights and voices I am screaming for peace.  For a gentleness instead of harsh realities of selfishness. 
       Screaming the umbilical cord be cut so I can be my own entity while yet still trying to find my way.  In the womb I was sheltered, fed, warm but not on my own.  There is something about being 100% independent that is freeing.  Maybe I will grow wings and soar but right now I do not know because Society has tried its hardest to clip my wings and scare me into thinking that it is safer down on the ground. There is no need for me to fly.  Unfortunately for them I saw another bird do it and crave that same freedom.  Freedom to soar on your own terms. Freedom to decide what direction to go. Basic freedom

Monday, February 21, 2011

I have decided

My birthday was yesterday and today I sit her and am in a place where moving forward is more than an option it is a necessity.  At 33 was full of loss, 34 is to move through that grief and make a place for joy. I decided to move forward in my dreams and make things happen.  Losing my Daddy only pushes me further to want to be the woman he knew I was.  Not sure if that makes sense but losing a parent does that.


When you make a decision like this cheerleaders are nice but they are rare. You need to be your own cheerleader and understand the beauty of you. You have to live in who you are and have babies. No not physical babies but projects that are a manifestation of your spirit.  It is time to move forward into your destiny and own it.

That is what I have decided..the time is now.  Time to move forward. 

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Writing on the Wall

I have been waiting for a huge revelation to what I am suppose to do next.  Waiting for a word allowance to move forward.  I felt discouraged I guess watching humanKIND simply be human.  Disappointment after disappointment played in my spirit.  It has had me laying in bed staring at the ceiling wondering why we were born or created when its so much hate, disrespect and anger in the world. So much stepping on people to get ahead no one is on a team it is all I.  Maybe its the Pisces in me that cries for people.  It is not that I am more than everyone, hell no I have my downs and pain but love has become nostalgic.  It is a rarity for people to actually want to climb higher.  This hate and negative energy is a Cancer. it can eat away at the very core of who you are give you amnesia.  I forgot I was a beast because I let someone who resented me rule my who I am.  I gave away that power.  I stand here now swimming through a ocean of grief for the ones I love gone but no human can stay under water you have to learn to breathe or die.  I can't die in grief, sometimes I feel like I am abandoning their memory by being happy but I am granting their wish by pushing forward.  It is not the fist time I have been broken and love, love filled my heart and not just any love but love for myself.  This is what makes me a beast.  I am a pit bull when it comes to protecting myself but now it is more about not giving away my happiness.  To not give up, to be a survivor to be able to look at myself proudly and say you did it., you let love  in, you let God in.  When I needed a life preserver I was not ashamed to say HEY!!!and as i am coming out the water I am developing more strength from the resistance and I am changing,evolving and am allowing myself to swim away from that sad place.  I have move past it but hold on to what is dear forever.  I will not stop, I will not give up and I be damned if I fail.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Killing Me Softly - Lauryn Hill - Violinist Lee England Jr

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

A little AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I am looking for more. Facebook is Facebook.  You socialize play games but as for substance, there is not much keeping me from screaming "THIS IS THE WORLD WIDE WEB, so where is the World".  Sounds cray I am sure but talking about Columbus all the time or my world and thoughts is not enough. I love to be inspired, motivated, exposed to things that open my mind to want to go higher in every way.  I do not enjoy celebrity conversation nor do I always feel like having an inspirational thought. Sometimes I need one.  Sometimes I want to find kindred spirits so I do not feel like an alien.  Some people who are tired of the same thing and are going higher.  I do have some on my friends list like that. I love them to death but this is not personal it is about my growth. My mind is craving more, which is part of the reason I do not sleep.  I need inspiration to give inspiration and yes I know that sounds like a Pisces to the core but it is so true.  Musicians write beautiful music because they experienced something beautiful to make the harmony so angelic or even rock groups pulled the crazy guitar rifts from some experience.  I simply want more and right now well today I feel stuck.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

New Eyes

The losses in my life had no choice but to affect me to my core. I know people say that you will come out the same person but how can you? My vision has changed, the way I see light vs darkness, my connection to others, the way I parent and love or even the things I put up with. It is not all bad though. I honestly did not think I was that strong, I didn't think I could get through but I did and not alone. When we lost our baby I felt hollow empty like I failed at something and I am not afraid to admit that because with our son being gone so were those dreams and that future I had planned. So was the Cookie Monster baby shower I planned or our children fighting over who wanted to hold him. Not only that but I had to process the fact I almost lost my life in the process. My blood loss was serious and I enjoy life and breathing. I literally watched life come back into my body I didn't recognize my face afterwards I didn't recognize me. It took some time to get my footing back and then Daddy. I lost my Daddy September 21st and I sat at the hospital, the same one I lost the baby in fact the same floor and I could not process it all I could process is tasks. I took a long time even going in the room to see his body because that was not my Daddy, my Daddy was gone and I felt lost. My brain froze it felt like everyday feeling like a haunting because I saw him when I was 2 feeding me which made my mom made, at 3 playing this little piggy, at 4 singing you are so beautiful to me, at 5 the field trips he escorted me on, at 6 at my honors celebration on and on and on but now at 34 that was it. He wouldn't be at my wedding physically and he wouldn't be there to see my daughter grow. How do you process that? I am still asking that but I did know my Daddy was courageous. He fought passed many trials of his life. Racism, the government tying to force their beliefs off of him, his battle with drugs, his finding himself again and HE WON. He did not give up even when people treated him differently he found himself and was sure of himself and who he was. That is a lesson I hold dearly to my heart. In all of that my brain began to transform like my Daddy left me a gift. He resuscitated my spirit. He walked with me to this day to let me know he was alright and I could do this. I have days I cry and have no idea I am crying until I look down and see the drops and then there are days I smile and just embrace his spirit. I didn't know that when I looked at his body lay there so lifeless that I had any strength, I didn't know that I could be happy in any capacity after we left the cemetery. I just stared and wondered if he would be cold nothing more but as this journey to find self I have found my father. I see him in the sun, I feel him in the breeze, I meet him in my dreams and we talk sometimes and other times we just smile at one another. So i thank him for being that Daddy. I thank him for loving me so hard that I except nothing less anymore. i thank for seeing me for me and loving it. I thank him for seeing my momma in me and he loved that. The lessons, the love, the grace and the endurance. He has inspired me and I feel like he has left me his vision and now I have new eyes. I laugh more, I do not feel the need for validation because I am validated and still I do not take shit from anyone but now when the present it to me I have a force field around me. I know its my Daddy and my other strong genes and I am eternally thankful.

I love you, I miss you and thank you Diddy (lol) I will always call you my Diddy and I will always be your Sugar Pops.

Memories are something death cannot take from you. Time that was spent with my Dad, talking to him..THATS mines. So although I am not over losing him I still hurt. I know it will be ok and somehow work out. I feel that.So do not be mad or around me mad because you see I act different or get upset when I have boundaries with people. I am in charge of my happiness and no one gets to take that. I am doing what I am meant to do is live. Daddy is smiling on that statement now. So am I. Marrying my best friend was a great first step with my new vision. Perfect. Live and not simply exist. Thats the plan.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Tank- I can't make you love me

Thursday, January 27, 2011

13 Sure Fire Ways to Raise Your Consciousness

http://www.dumblittleman.com/2010/06/13-sure-fire-ways-to-raise-your.html
by Henri Junttila

13 Sure Fire Ways to Raise Your Consciousness


Raising your consciousness means raising your vibration or your energy. The higher it is, the lighter and more at peace you feel.

Think back to one of those days where everything went effortlessly. Work was seemingly a piece of cake, conversations went great, and your relationships just shined. Everything was going so well that you broke into song and smiled to everyone you met. Can you remember a day like this?

Obviously, we aren't always this way. There are days when everything looks a shade darker. Where simple conversations are a struggle. It’s easy to get caught in those moods but if you find a way to calm yourself long enough to refocus your brain and emotions, it's possible to reverse the day.

Life is about doing what you love and following your heart. There’s a reason why you’re here. You may or may not know what it is, and that’s okay. One day you will.

We’ve been taught to strive, pursue and consume. It's a never-ending cycle. That’s ending now, because you are enough and everything is okay, even if it may not seem like that in the short-term.

Here are thirteen sure-fire ways of raising your consciousness:
  1. Simplifying
    Eliminate stuff, clear away clutter and clean your home. The more stuff you have, the more burdened your mind will be. Getting rid unnecessary stuff may at first go against everything you know, but when you’ve done it, you’ll see the benefit.

  2. Deliberate Action
    Taking specific action and moving forward even when you’re afraid, frustrated and confused will give you clarity. It’s counter-intuitive to keep going if you feel fear, but realize that your lizard brain is always trying to protect you from the unknown. Embrace the unknown, fear and confusion. Take deliberate action.

  3. Uplifting Music
    Finding music that empowers, enlightens and uplifts is different from person to person, which is why you have to experiment. Some days I listen to the groovy beats of reggae, other times I get a boost out of listening to the carefully orchestrated symphonies of classical music. Music has a profound effect on our consciousness, so use it wisely.

  4. Exercise
    Moving your body is an ingredient that is missing from many people’s lives today. It doesn’t have to be hard. It doesn’t even have to be boring. Find what you think is fun. The important thing is that you do it regularly. I like martial arts. What do you like?

  5. Being Kind
    When you are generous, you can feel your heart expanding. You don’t have to volunteer or travel to Africa to be kind. You can be kind by helping someone over the street, or just giving people a simple smile as you’re strolling down the sidewalk on an especially gloomy day.

  6. Meditation
    You can meditate by sitting, walking or doing. There are no rules that limit you. Your body is different from mine, which is why you have to find what brings you joy. When you raise your consciousness, you feel lighter, happier and more at peace. Meditation can be done while doing the dishes, reading, walking or looking at a candle. There are no limitations.

  7. Singing
    While I am not a huge fan of singing, it does raise your consciousness dramatically. The next time you’re feeling down, try putting on an uplifting tune and singing along. Act like there’s nobody left on earth and just let it rip.

  8. Nature
    Being out in nature is relaxing for a reason. We have a symbiotic relationship with mother earth. If you want tangible proof; be aware of your inner body while touching a tree. You will feel a calming, loving energy come through. All things on this blue planet of ours are imbued with energy. Go for a stroll in the park, sit below a tree, or have a picnic.

  9. Having Fun
    Watch a comedy, go out with your closest friends or sit down with a good book. Depending on the day, having fun means different things for me. As I am writing this, I am doing what I am passionate about, which is writing and losing myself in words. It fills me with joy and I love it.

  10. Animals
    Did you know that just being around a dog or a cat has health benefits? Being around animals is calming, because they live in the now. They have no concept of time, because time in and of itself does not really exist. It’s an out-there concept, but even scientists know this.

  11. Being Present
    Nothing beats being fully in the now. This can mean focusing on your breath, observing your thoughts or being present in your body, feeling all of your muscles, tendons and ligaments moving and working together. The more present you are, the more joy you will feel. Stop thinking about the past and future for a second and just be. There is nothing more uplifting than that.

  12. Eating Healthy
    Food is one of our greatest enemies when it comes to our health. We’ve been eating processed, unhealthy foods for several decades now, and it shows. More people are sick now than ever before. Eating healthy, vegan foods has been proven to reverse heart disease, increase mental faculties, improve energy levels and on the list goes. Be mindful of what you eat.

  13. Following Your Passion
    Last, but definitely not least, if you want to raise your consciousness and your vibration, you have to do what you love. Finding your passion isn’t easy, but what other options are there? I will either follow my passion, or die trying. When you have that attitude, you will succeed sooner or later. Your life is in your hands. You are responsible, so start taking control and begin living the life you want to live.

Perception


I've learned I do not always have the answers but I am seeking them. I have learn perception is an interesting concept especially more when I use my camera. What I see the camera sometimes exposes something different. It is like looking through someone elses eyes at times, Sometimes good sometimes bad but always different. I find this an amazing concept that is baseline knowledge but when you embrace it, it's all a matter of perception you understand that everyone sees you differently. What important though is how do you see yourself? The rest is THEIR problem.

Maya Angelou's Phenomenal Woman by Islandbreed 0001

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Night Owl


I have been writing and honestly it feels good but it is work. The brain has a story to be told and you want the reader to get it. It is late and I am honestly exhausted at this point but I couldn't stop writing. Although today it is being used as a distraction of other negativeness going on. It is really crazy how refocus helps you out enough to get by. My brain was trying to go there and tonight my body didn't want to. My mind didn't feel like crying so I wrote and just continued writing until there was no more in me to do. It is called learning how to cope. Now sleep is important because I need to act like I do have a job to get up for LOL.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

God I see you


I love connecting with people who have an open mind. People who want to explore their truths and not just believe what they were taught but instead open to examine. Everyone needs to examine God (or by whatever title you choose). God wouldn't want us to believe in Him simply because the preacher said so. he would want us to experience what we truly believe or not. It is part of worshiping in spirit and in truth. What is your truth? What happens when you close your eyes and not what you can see but what faith tells you. What truths have you uncovered that you ignore because it messes with what you were taught or because it doesn't suite your image.
No matter what truth you uncover let it be your truth. Walk in it, bathe in it and be free. Look in the mirror and see God. Inhale...exhale.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Be patient with me

What do you do when you want to scream but you know the walls are thin and you worry about everyone elses ears? What about when your heart races in the middle of the night the whole house is asleep and you wake up with tears and a fear in you although you do not remeber the dream? What about those days when life has you tired for a moment you need to catch your breath but everyone else thinks your fine so you go with it?
These are real question I have had for awhile and truth is no one can answer them for me. I have to keep it real with myself and find those answers. I have to find a way because I am really angry. I do not remember feeling this before not sure why it has come now? The stages of grief has been listed as

  • Denial (this isn't happening to me!)
  • Anger (why is this happening to me?)
  • Bargaining (I promise I'll be a better person if...)
  • Depression (I don't care anymore)
  • Acceptance (I'm ready for whatever comes)
I cannot say in that order at least for me but the anger sometimes is a handful and I feel like no one gets it. I want the clock to turn back although I know its out of my hands. That pisses me off. I want to touch my Daddys face, hear his voice, ANYTHING but there is nothing and I am forced without choice to move on. The World is still going and everything is still day to day. It is hard to grasp the concept of a World without him and yet I either lie down and die or live...there is no plan C and that pisses me off. The fact that I feel lost sometimes pisses me off. The only way I can get through this is through honesty and courage. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day, either way today. Not too good and thats ok.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Brian Mcknight - Still In Love



I hear this song and think of my husband the one who stood by me. Been my best friend for over 20 years. Never thought I would fall because we were best friends and kids. One day I came to realization that had fallen a long time ago and out spirits were connected. This man I love. So good, devine.

Laughter

Maya Angelou "Laugh" from Omega Institute on Vimeo.



I remeber a time in my life where nothing was funny. I could sit and watch any comedy people cracking up around me and all I could think is about my pain. I was trapped and being told i wasn't enough. I was treated as if my Creator made a mistake and I accepted that it might be true all for the love of a man. The man I loved at the time turned out to be an illusion of what I thought was. Love does not hurt. Love is beautiful and it builds. Love helps you overcome. Love is not something you settle for but instead it simply is LOVE. When we breathe we breathe out love. With that love comes peace and with peace allowance to feel joy. Joy carries the laughter and now I crack up everyday. Freedom

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Home - Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros Acoustic Cover (Jorge & Alex...



She makes me smile..tooo cute

My present to self

Today would be my due date of the son I lost. I woke up and it was a weird feeling because I felt like there should be no more pain but it hurts differently but it hurts. I decided to not be unproductive today so today for me I decided to adopt a whole different lifestyle of eating. I have PCOS, diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol lol yeah all of it. So I decided to take charge of my health and get myself together. That is my present to myself. I needed to do this awhile but I am stubborn. I like sugar I LOVE all carbs which basically turns into sugar lol. But do i love it enough to die for it? This is the question I had to ask myself while I was crying over my loses and not feeling my gains. So today I am going to go home and take my before picture and heck no I am not showing it until I have some progress lol. I am more focused on health than weight though. Losing weight is a benefit and if that happens I am cool with that too

Steve Harvey Tears Up On CNN Talking About Losing A Generation Of Young ...



People using their money or time to impact a childs life for the better even if one child is affected that one child can impact the World. Become doctors, lawyers, humanitarians and pass it on. Life is a swift journey you can make your mark by helping other children see their beauty. See the gangs is not for them. See that life in itself is worth living and to live it to the fullest not simply exist.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Fantasia Lady Marmalade




Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Dr. Maya Angelou

Love Liberates

"I am grateful to have been loved and to be loved now and to be able to love, because that liberates. Love liberates. It doesn't just hold—that's ego. Love liberates. It doesn't bind. Love says, 'I love you. I love you if you're in China. I love you if you're across town. I love you if you're in Harlem. I love you. I would like to be near you. I'd like to have your arms around me. I'd like to hear your voice in my ear. But that's not possible now, so I love you. Go.'" — Dr. Maya Angelou


Love would eliminate so many issues in the world. That along with respect would make us try to be better but also want humankind to be better. We would reach higher without worry of judgment or doubt because the rights everyone should have may come into play. Our children would have parents that would not think about disappearing, the divorce rate would go down because if you love and respect the other person people wouldn't have motive. The media would broadcast inspiration and stories to build instead of so many sad stories and stuff to promote stereotypes. Love

Transformer Train

I had to add this vid..LOVE IT

Dreary rain yeah go away

What is it about the rain that makes you want to go right back to sleep? It is such a soothing sound as I watch it from my bed trickling down the window. It is not a violent rain but a sweet shower the rhythms constant but R&B slow rhythms. Yesterday was yesterday and those troubles that I had in my mind seem to wash away with every drop I see run down my window and I know that life is good. Take time to clear your mind lay back and listen.

Monday, January 17, 2011

BLACKMAIL

I blackmailed myself yeah you read it right. I miss facebook but I said I will not go on there until my book is finished and out of my hands again. Sad that FB is that fire lol. So sad..so sad.
Honestly though I have enjoyed my vacation of being in everyones business because that is all it really is. I am getting to know me all over again. I am ok with the old Lanora evolving just as long as it is for the better. I want my Dad to look down and say "Thats my Sugar Pop's." I want to look in the mirror knowing I feel progress has been made. i do not want the sun to catch me not making progress. That is how to live a stagnant life. I am looking to renovate and rebuild. Create better habit and make better choice while I shoot for the moon and some hits land among the stars, but I want the moon.

The beauty of having children

My kids make me want to be a better person because I want them better. I have to be a better example as a parent in order to be that parent that chooses excellence.
I have to admit my break from social networks and it being more about centering myself, this has been a concern of mines. My children have been through these deaths just like I have and though they seem ok I want to be sure. My daughter is an eater when she is upset and to help her mind and body it is time to implement better habits. My son he is quiet and holds things eternally. At 12 this is normal but he needs an outlet.

I love my kids. They are beautiful examples of Gods creation. They are beautiful. SO in search of self and finding myself I have to also remember my kids and we can all get better together and heal.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

one day at a time

Within those devastating 6 months of 2010, those life changing events that stopped me in my tracks and made me think I just might lose my mind I found strength. Gods strength is made perfect in the time of trouble. Me, I am not perfect but if I was not to give credit to God for his power and wonderful acts I would not be acknowledging how I got through. My husband was and is amazing and has been my best friend since we were in 8th grade 20 years of friendship.

Losing our baby was very hard for me and then almost dying in the process brought a new understanding of life and living it to the fullest 2 months after that Daddy was gone suddenly from a heart attack and I learned how to endure when it feel like you can no longer breathe, I am still working on that one and then 2 months after that my husbands sister who I have know more than half her life passed at 23 and again I had to see death has no respect for age. Now is rebuilding and moving forward to find my center again.

My center has been shifted and my perspective has changed when it comes to life and how you are suppose to make it through. I do not take breathing for granted , not one hug or I love you for granted. But now I have found a new journey to find my center in order to flourish once again and it can be frustrating at times. It is like being reborn and you have these eyes you never used before, Everything is brand new because your prospective has changed. I first found myself simply surviving each day. Functioning like robot because my children had to have an example of moving an and know I am ok. THEY come first but now that my kids are ok it is time to process and it is a lot to process but it is happening maybe slower than I want but you can't rush healing. You have to take your time and reflect, use that negative energy in a positive way and find a way to move forward and learn to breathe again. There are no shortcuts only time.

I cannot say where this journey will lead because it is a day by day affair but I will not let the deaths of others be the death of me. That would be dishonoring life and them. They would want me to move forward. I think about that if it was me my daughter would have the hardest time but I am raising her to understand death is a part of life and that I am always with her. I am her mother. My husband has been a part of me since he was born we were made for each other and my godson, stepson who I love his mother made me is Godmommy when he was born and I will always be that. I would want move forward and I know my Dad would want the same for me because he only wanted the best.Therefore I will live courageously one day at a time

Recycle and in return obtain a treasure





At http://www.freecycle.org/ it is a community effort to give and get free stuff from your town that you could use or that you don't need anymore. Instead of filling up the landfill you would be giving new life into that item. The average household contributed as much as 7.9 pounds of waste per person per day and putting items in the Earht produces toxin in the air, Earth and sea. These effects can be cut down only by watching what we throw away and recycling. Freecycle is entirely non-profit and again its free. So sign up on their yahoo board give and get. You never know what treasures you will find.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Happy Birthday Martin Luther King Jr.




Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it.
-Martin Luther King Jr.

You would've been 82 years old today and I want to thank you. I thank you for paving the way even more being one of our martyrs for the cause. One of many that fell and yet you stood strong. Thank you for putting humanity first when it was at such a price. No you were not a perfect man but you were perfectly fitted for the cause. You made a difference and that is why you have a holiday and we thank you. Some still don't understand they do not get why this day is so important to us all not just African Americans but equality makes the World a better place. The right to be treated as humans. We all still struggle but thank you for the progress made. You are loved and appreciated.



What is a wenus?



Can I touch your wenus (wee-nis)?

I heard this on Oprahs Network OWN and busted out laughing like a kid. The researcher in me looked it up and it is something so simple. A wenus is the medical term for elbow particularly the skin on your elbow and that is your strange fact of the day.

Five Guys





Have a burger your way and it is delicious. I am not a fan of hamburger at all but once I tasted my double bacon cheese with grilled onions, grilled mushrooms and A-1 sauce oh don't forget the jalapeno peppers. I was hooked. The patties were perfectly cooked, not dried out and actually had flavor. They have Cajun fries that do not need anything on them because yes they are that good. I am a girl who like s to eat good food, no shame. Therefore I am plugging Five Guys Burger And Fries for locations and to check out their website click here.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Stay woke



I have been listening to this because it captures everything I feel right now. I am on a journey of enlightment. Searching for something new, something inside me. Not wanting to simply to be a student to life but ultimately a teacher. Life is too short to sell yourself short. To sleep on life and your dreams.

I am in the search of something new
(a beautiful world im trying to find)
Searchin' me,
Searching inside of you
And thats fo' real.......

Even though you go through struggle and strife
To keep a healthy life, I stay woke
(I stay woke)
Everybody knows a black or white, there's
Creatures in every shape and size
(I stay woke)


Not trying to ever get comfy enough where i fall asleep. I stay woke.

Lanora

Thursday, January 13, 2011

A Moment of Silence for Daddy

A moment to take it in that I will never see your eyes open again. A moment to catch my breath because it felt like my heart stopped with yours. Why did the spirit hint to me it was coming? Why 2 days before did I post tons of pictures of you on FB because I missed you. My spirit knew because we are connected. I am the daughter with your birthmark, the one who followed you endlessly. Now I have to take a moment. I have to rebuild because I feel broken. I have to breathe because the sorrow is suffocating me. I just want my Daddy is what my spirit cries. I want you here but you have been freed. God thought it was time, your heart was tired and now it is good bye. You never held me back from soaring so now I need to let you soar guilt free. You have to spread your wings and soar to the heavens..they need another angel. I find myself watching the wind sway the tress because I feel you there, I see you in the sunset, the stars..the moon. The wind blows and I feel your embrace and you saying its ok and you are surrounded by perfect love and you deserve that because you were perfect. The perfect Daddy for me.

I am stepping away taking care handling my business trying to live because I know that honors you and your wishes. I am taking a moment to be me. To take my wings and fly here on Earth and represent being an extension of you and you are an extension of God. You taught me my first solo and this is my second solo standing on my own for you and for me.


John Legend - Ordinary People

Getting Motivated

I am so not motivated to do anything so I researched and found this article about motivation. I feel it is only right to share because maybe I am not the only one in a rut.

1. Ignore The Unimportant

Learning to ignore is a fantastic lesson. Much more rewarding than you think. There must be an art of ignoring and they should teach it in universities. Spanning your focus in so many areas will only weaken you. Ignoring what’s unimportant will free up energy, foster motivation and help you stay focused and productive.

2. Understand What Makes You Bored

And avoid it. Boredom is a nasty place to be. But as any other state of your being can be understood and you can identify the triggers. Once you understand that, you can safely go away from the gray zone. Takes some time but it really worth the effort.

3. Laugh More Often

Watch comedies, read comics. Throw away that ugly seriousness form your face. Laughing is a safety valve for your stress relief mechanism. It actually let it out from your body in bursts. And while you’re laughing you can still learn new stuff, like personal development lessons from Dumbo.

4. Keep A Log Of Your Breakthroughs

Do you remember when you had the first major success of your life? No? I thought so. We tend to overlook this simple habit of writing down our feelings every time we have a major breakthrough in our lives. If you want the shortest path to motivation, just keep a log of your successes. And get inspired by it.

5. Exercise

This is one the easiest and simplest way to summon motivation. Just walk out from the office, start doing some pushups or just go for a short run around the house. It will instantly declutter your physical body. Every time you exercise, you produce endorphins. Endorphins are good.

6. Create A Custom Environment

You can’t be motivated if you work in an environment which does not represent you. Make changes, adjust, improve. Doesn’t matter if it’s about your job office or your home. Whatever the space you work in, make it yours somehow, that will lower your unconscious adaptation efforts and you’ll have more time dedicated to the actual tasks.

7. Read Success Stories

Like in other people success stories. Get inspired. Admire them (with caution, but do admire them). Reading about success will make it more available to you and will fuel your efforts towards its achievement. And of course, you can learn how to be successful too.

8. Switch Tasks

You will get bored if you work on the same projects for too long. Boredom kills motivation. Try having several small projects that you can land on whenever you feel you’re on the verge of a burn out. Not to mention that switching tasks will instantly create fresh perspectives, helping you solve problems faster.

9. Assess Your Progress

If you work constantly you will make some progress, that’s a rule. You may have the impression that you’re not going anywhere but that’s because you’re skipping all those little milestones you go through every day. Watching back with satisfaction at what you created will surely boost your energy.

10. Talk About Your Projects

With your friends or family. Let the people know you’re doing stuff. That will often make yourself aware of the fact that you’re actually doing stuff and enjoy doing it. It will also create a certain level of accountability that will most likely push you forward.

11. Avoid Energy Vampires

Naysayers, pessimists, braggers they all are sucking up your energy. Don’t get caught in such power games, avoid at all costs those energy leaks. Even if that means you’ll isolate more often. It’s better to do work in your own secluded realm than to try to resist to a diminisihing environment.

12. Write Clear Goals

Most of the time that translates to actually write down your goals, you already have them clear in your mind. But take them out of your mind, put them in a trusted system and move on. Your mind works better when it knows what it has to do not when it spends time figuring what it has to do.

13. Exercise Satisfaction

Once you finished some task, reward yourself. Give yourself a prize. No need to be a huge one, but just enough to create the habit. Look forward to it while you’re working, wait for it, praise for it. In time you’ll become addicted to this fulfillment satisfaction and you won’t stop until you reach it.

14. Accept Failure

As part of the game. Failure, like success, is just a result of your actions, nothing more. One of the biggest motivation enemies is fear of failure. Fear that your outcome will turn bad. Accept it. It may turn bad, but that doesn’t mean you have to stop doing what you’re doing. Give your best and hope for the best.

15. Use Affirmations

Like writing down your intentions, your goals, your current status. Affirmations are a very powerful tool, hugely underrated. People find it awkward to write self-directed messages and read them out loud. News flash: you’re doing this all the time, unconsciously. So why not doing it consciously? Start with a morning phrase.

16. Play Games

Impersonate people. Imitate animals. Pretend you’re Sindbad the Sailor. Playing challenging games will relax your mind and at the same time will gather more resources from secret sources. A good motivation is always blended with joy. You can start with a simple game like how to get from a to b in 5 random steps.

17. Say “No”

Say “no” to distractions, to trolls, to depression. Exercising “no”’s is liberating. Too often too many commitments are making your life a continuous chore. Limit your promises and only get into things you really want to finish. Once you do that, go to a mirror, smile and start to politely exercise your “no”‘s.

18. Look For Positive People

Sadness, whining and complaining doesn’t play well with motivation. On the contrary. But positive, optimistic, energetic people will always shift your vibration in the right direction. Search them, find them and become their friend. Sometimes all you need to get motivated is to be surrounded by shiny happy people.

19. Difficulty Is Part Of The Game

Learn to work under pressure. Some things are more difficult than other. Accept that fact and focus on doing what you have to do not on your feelings of dissatisfaction. Difficulty is often what makes things worth doing. No sweat, no glory. Whenever I feel something is going to be tough, I’m usually more motivated to do it. The reward will be higher.

20. Create Personal Challenges

Personal challenges are short term goals, usually from 15 to 90 days. Like starting to exercise, or creating a habit from scratch in 15 days. Using personal challenges strengthen your inner power the same way exercising is strengthening your muscles. The more you do, the more motivated you feel to do even more.

21. Chose Positive Motivation

Whenever you lock in your motivation, do your best to keep it on the positive side, which is rooted in service. As opposed to the negative motivation, which is basically rooted in fear. Negative motivation works just the same, only it lasts significantly less than positive motivation.

22. Release Your Guardians

You do have guardians and some of them are pretty nasty. They won’t let you do your stuff. The bad thing about your guardians is that most of the time they’re working at the unconscious level, really difficult to interact with. Just accept, acknowledge and let them go. You will be much better off.

23. Enforce Your Personal Mission

You gotta have a personal mission. If you don’t, go find one fast. Reinforcing your personal mission at certain intervals is surely one of the greatest motivators of all. It’s like looking on a map and seeing at any moment where you are, how much do you have to go and which path you have to chose.

24. Spend Time Outside

If you can do something creative, like gardening or landscaping, even better. But it’s ok even if you don’t. Spending time outside of your box will clear the air inside. When you get back, everything will be fresher and shinier. And something fresher is always a nice motivator.

25. Keep A Clean Inbox

That’s one of the few GTD concepts I still use and it proves to be a great motivator. A clean inbox helps a smooth thoughts flow. A smooth thoughts flow let me be in the moment without any hidden burdens. Being in the moment is usually all I need to actually start doing things.

26. Don’t Aim For Perfection

It will soon drain you out. Aiming to be better is the real game. Perfection is a dead end, nothing really happens after you reached to it. Accepting that you can be better instead of perfect leaves some room for growth. And that means you have a reason to do more. And that’s what we usually call motivation, right?

27. Do One Thing At A Time

Multitasking is a myth. Even computers processors aren’t really doing multi-tasking, that’s what we perceive. Instead they have a single frequency and several parallel buses managing information, faking a multi-tasking activity. Multitasking is creating internal conflicts, both in humans and in computers. You end up spending more time solving those conflicts than actually working.

28. Keep A Source Of Inspiring Readings

You’re not always completely down, most of the time you’re just averagish, just one sentence away from your best shape. Be sure to keep around a list of inspiring readings. Quotes, blog posts, ebooks, whatever works for you. You can start with 100 ways to live a better life, for instance.

29. Put On Some Good Music

Just let it there, floating around, don’t turn the volume knob. Just enough to recreate a pleasant atmosphere. Music speaks to areas you can’t control with logical tools, yet is so powerful that can completely shift your mood in a second. The only thing better than silence is good music.

30. Don’t Fall Into The Productivity Trap

It’s not how much you do, but how much of it really matters. Doing stuff just for filling up notebooks with tasks won’t make you feel motivated. On the other side, whenever you’re doing something that matters, your planing and organizing activities will just flow.

31. Keep Your Life Lenses Clean

Your camera objective may be blurred but you don’t know. This is why you get the same picture again and again, this is why feel stuck and can’t seem to see any progress. Sometimes all you have to do is to clean up your lenses. It takes a little bit of courage but it’s worth the trouble.

32. Clean Up Your House

I know you need motivation for that too, but believe me, it’s a fantastic way to clean up your internal garbage. Cleaning up your house is not a chore, it’s a necessity. Your action paths may be clogged the same way your floor is sticky. And most of the time unsticking the floor will open your mind again.

33. Stop Reading This And Get To Work

It was fun reading it, I’m sure. But it won’t get things done in your place. Inspiration is a good motivator, but don’t abuse it. Now, that you are all energized, it’s time for you to get back to work. Of course, you can bookmark this post for future motivation sessions, but for now, just go back to work.